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| Once again, I have neglected this site. I have been more focused on the other two, facebook, myspace, school, God, and my boyfriend. Things have changed quite a bit in the last 5 months.
Cassy and I haven't been spending a whole lot of time together lately. I'm to blame, really, because I've been spending all of the free time that I can with Ethan. Of course, she has been working and she has a boyfriend, too. They've been dating for a while now, and I'm not sure how she feels about him. She says that he's quite clingy and he's getting to be too much, but she also said that he would go psycho if she broke things off with him. I don't know him all that well, so I couldn't tell you what I think of him. Anyway, back to the point. I am working on getting things back on track with her. It will never be like it was before because we both have boyfriends and she works and I'm thinking about getting a job. Hopefully we will have at least a little of what we had before.
Shane and I are kind of iffy. I love him to death and I am there for him through anything, but his habits lately have been upsetting me. He smokes, he drinks. I hate it. He is really screwing up his life and I don't want that for him. I want him to have a good life. He used to be different. He didn't smoke for...three years, I think, but he started up again. I really hate it and I wish he didn't, but I don't know how to get him to stop. I don't know what to do about it. I really do love him though. He is like a brother to me. He's there for me, and I am there for him.
Miesha and I really haven't hung out over the past 5 months. We kind of had a little issue with Alexis, I guess. I don't even remember what it was about, really, and it was probably really stupid. I mean, we're friends, but not best friends. We've drifted, I guess you could say. I love her, but I don't think we're going to be close like we used to be. That happens, though. You lose friends and make new ones.
Ethan and I have been together for a little over 5 months now and it's truly amazing. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone. If what I thought what I had with Shane was love, then I don't even know what to call this. He knows me better than I know myself and he is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. I know that he is the one for me and he is the one I'm going to marry. At first I didn't know if I should date him because he was Kacy's ex, and we all know what happened when I dated Miesha's ex. I am glad I took that chance, though. I love him more than anything. He is everything to me. He truly makes me happy.
I have been going to church since...August, I think. I have been happier since I found God. He truly is amazing. He has helped me through so much and I don't know how I ever lived without Him before. I have so much faith and I believe that with Him, I can get through anything.
I have this issue that's been weighing me down. Because Ethan and I have been together so long, everyone assumes that we have had sex. People are slowly beginning to see how much I am against premarital sex, I think. His mother seems to think we have had sex. I think she hates me. Ethan doesn't. lol My parents think he's great, and they realize how serious we are about each other. My family loves him, all except my sister, I think. Her and I have been battling a lot. I think she's jealous. We used to get along great, until Ethan came along. lol I really don't know what to do about her.
We moved and we had three families living in a three bedroom house that was much smaller than our last. Sylvia and her crew and then Tom and Lois, our neighbors from before. Sylvia and her family have finally found a place of her own, and I am seriously happy about that. It's much quieter now. Now it's just us and Tom and Lois. I don't know how much longer they're going to be here. It's been a while. I'm still sharing a room with Natalie, and I probably will be until I go off to college. My parents keep talking about building a room in the basement, but I remember how many times I've been told that they're going to do something and then they don't. I've gotten used to it.
Mom and Grandma started talking again on my birthday. Now we get along pretty well. I still remember all that she has done to our family, but I guess I'm going to have to let that go. I don't know. I stay at her house on Friday nights, usually. She likes it. When I was little I spent every Saturday over there. I can't these days, though. Not with me going to church. She doesn't go to church anymore. Kind of strange how we switched roles.
In the past five months, I've seen two new family members. I met Charlie, my baby cousin. Jack and Adrienne came to see us out of the blue. I kind of knew they were coming because Jack asked us if we still lived in the same place. There had been a long dispute between my mother and him over things that were supposedly said. Turns out it was things that Deb (my step grandmother) had made up. She's changed quite a bit. I also met my baby cousin Alyssa, who is Michelle and Frank's new kid. They have five, which means they have beat us. lol I got to see them all for Nat's birthday party. All except Frank. He had to work. It was nice seeing them though. They're all growing up so much. Hopefully we won't wait as long to see them again. We don't talk to a whole lot of family anymore.
Well, it's 12:30 and I have school, so I should be getting to bed. My update was longer than I had thought it would be and I'm sorry for writing so much. lol I didn't even know I had that much to write. I probably won't write for another 3 months, so don't expect updates any time soon. lol
Love you all.
Britt <3
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| It has been forever since I have updated on this one. Once again, I apologize to anyone who may read this, which I think may only be Shane and Cassy, if even that.
Lemme see.
Cassy is still having problems with that guy. And I'll be honest, I don't like him and I don't think he's right for her, but I can't control her. It's her life, and as her best friend, I will support anything she does, whether it's right or wrong. She's my sister and I love her very much.
Miesha and I are friends again. I'm glad that we're done with this whole thing. I really was quite miserable not having her around. And the guy? He shouldn't be breathing, but I've allowed him to live only because he lives so far away. He should be happy he isn't in the hospital or six feet under the ground right now. I don't even hate him for what he did to me. I hate him for what he did to her.
Shane and I are good as friends as we'll ever be. We helped each other a lot over the summer, and I'm glad we're friends. He's more like a brother than a friend, really. And it feels weird saying that because we dated, but I guess it's something that could only make sense between him and me. Although he likes to argue and fight with me, we're still friends.
And last, but certainly not least, my boyfriend Ethan. He truly is a great guy. We've been dating for less than a week, but it seems like so much longer than that. He's a junior. I met him through Kacy and Miesha. He's so amazing. I hope that we're together for a long time. We have so much to look forward to, in my opinion.
But, I have to set the table and put in the apple pie for dinner. Mom invited Ethan over. =]
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| Oh wow. It has been...forever since I have been on this one. How silly of me to forget. Well, this page needs a major update. Where to begin? For the second semester of my freshman year, I was homeschooled. There were several reasons. I missed a lot of school, and I couldn't catch up. I had the bitchiest english teacher. And Dad was getting surgery. He didn't get surgery until June, but we didn't know that then. Anyway, bottom line? I totally cracked under pressure, and I'm telling you, it takes a lot to crack me. =[ I know this xanga was originally made for Shane. It's kind of funny, the way we ended up. We get along now, better than ever, I think. We have helped each other through a lot lately, and I'm thankful to have him as a friend. A year ago, having him as a friend wouldn't have been enough, but now, I am confident in where our relationship is at. We've gotten over each other. I have the slightest feeling for him, but I am not sure whether it's mere friendship or maybe there's still a trace of love. I know that he loves me, but only as a friend. And I am grateful to have him as a friend. I would never ask anything more of him. He has done quite enough for me already, without really realizing it. My best friend (and the one I call my sister), Cassy, is going through a rough time right now. She is torn between what's best for everyone, and her mother's happiness. She is also in love with someone that she may never be with. I hate to see her in such an emotional turmoil, but I am going to help her all that I can. I hope that she can get through this and still be in one piece. I wish that all of her problems would just disappear. I've been trying to push her in the right direction, but to be honest, I don't really know what's right for her. I want to believe that I am pushing her in the right direction, though. I really hope that she can get through this, and she knows that I am right there to back her up and comfort her whenever she needs. I've gone through another heartbreak. I'm not fully recovered yet. In fact, I'm barely recovered, but what's the point? He's in love with my ex-best friend. He won't date her though. Or not right now at least. He hasn't asked her out. He said that he kind of wants to be with her, but doesn't know if he can trust her ever again. She cheated on him. I don't see how he could ever trust her. It's really my fault that we're not friends, though. I should know better than to date my friend's ex. Especially the day after they broke up. I'm a terrible friend, I know. He just seemed like the perfect guy to me, you know? We were so serious. We talked about marriage and kids, and he found a house near the rez for us. Damn. Why did it all have to be screwed up? Anyway, I better get going. It's 6 in the morning and my parents were just bitching at me cause I've been on for two hours. lol I guess nothing really changes, does it? <33 Britt | | |
| Oh wow. It has been...forever since I have been on this one. How silly of me to forget. Well, this page needs a major update. Where to begin? For the second semester of my freshman year, I was homeschooled. There were several reasons. I missed a lot of school, and I couldn't catch up. I had the bitchiest english teacher. And Dad was getting surgery. He didn't get surgery until June, but we didn't know that then. Anyway, bottom line? I totally cracked under pressure, and I'm telling you, it takes a lot to crack me. =[ I know this xanga was originally made for Shane. It's kind of funny, the way we ended up. We get along now, better than ever, I think. We have helped each other through a lot lately, and I'm thankful to have him as a friend. A year ago, having him as a friend wouldn't have been enough, but now, I am confident in where our relationship is at. We've gotten over each other. I have the slightest feeling for him, but I am not sure whether it's mere friendship or maybe there's still a trace of love. I know that he loves me, but only as a friend. And I am grateful to have him as a friend. I would never ask anything more of him. He has done quite enough for me already, without really realizing it. My best friend (and the one I call my sister), Cassy, is going through a rough time right now. She is torn between what's best for everyone, and her mother's happiness. She is also in love with someone that she may never be with. I hate to see her in such an emotional turmoil, but I am going to help her all that I can. I hope that she can get through this and still be in one piece. I wish that all of her problems would just disappear. I've been trying to push her in the right direction, but to be honest, I don't really know what's right for her. I want to believe that I am pushing her in the right direction, though. I really hope that she can get through this, and she knows that I am right there to back her up and comfort her whenever she needs. I've gone through another heartbreak. I'm not fully recovered yet. In fact, I'm barely recovered, but what's the point? He's in love with my ex-best friend. He won't date her though. Or not right now at least. He hasn't asked her out. He said that he kind of wants to be with her, but doesn't know if he can trust her ever again. She cheated on him. I don't see how he could ever trust her. It's really my fault that we're not friends, though. I should know better than to date my friend's ex. Especially the day after they broke up. I'm a terrible friend, I know. He just seemed like the perfect guy to me, you know? We were so serious. We talked about marriage and kids, and he found a house near the rez for us. Damn. Why did it all have to be screwed up? Anyway, I better get going. It's 6 in the morning and my parents were just bitching at me cause I've been on for two hours. lol I guess nothing really changes, does it? <33 Britt | | |
| Gosh. It's been how long? lol Sorry bout the gap in time. I guess I've been more concerned about my other two xangas. This one was mainly supposed to be about Shane. Since he's just pretty much a friend to me now...I guess that department is taken care of. I mean, yeah, I would like it if I went back out with him, maybe. Things seemed to have changed. Sometimes it feels as though he is more like a brother to me. Other times, a best friend. And sometimes, the most annoying pest. I think that I have grown tremendously over the past few months, what with marching band and school to keep up with. I don't think I need Shane, or a boyfriend for that matter. I think it was just all a matter of wanting someone, and I don't want anyone anymore.Yes, I'd like to have a serious relationship with a guy I know who won't intentionally hurt me and if we cut off the relationship, it won't affect our friendship. I want a guy like that. Maybe I'll only get that later in life. Guys my age are too immature. I'm just tired of having to worry about so many things at once that I am done putting up with it. I don't like people who play games. They annoy me. Yes, it can be fun sometimes. But I can't deal with that right now. I'm more concerned about my future and what kind of life I can make for my children. I want them to have better than I do. My life isn't bad, but it could be better. And I want that better for my children. Well, I gotta git to bed. It's late. <33 Britt Luv ya! | | |
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